Conversations With A Romantic
I am not a romantic. I have no illusions about the grandeur of love.
BUT it's always refreshing to hear stories of love...of hope...of trust...of almost "perfect" relationships in this crazy world of broken hearts...broken marriages...cheating husbands/boyfriends...cheating wives/girlfriends...a world where falling out of love could happen all the time...
I had a conversation last night with a friend of mine...not one of my gay-fruity-tutti friends...but a straight-as-fuck guy...the times I've talked to him, we've always mucked around and cussed each other out and revel in stories of sexuality and stupidity. But last night was different.
He told me despite his whoring ways...he still wants to find somebody real...
He proceeds to tell me about, this guy in his Marine Corps unit who calls his wife almost everyday, and talks to her in the sweetest softest voice. They've been married three years and he still talks to her like they've just met.
It's funny because this friend of mine is divorced...and he has all the bitterness and disillusions about marriage and love (or so i thought)...but somehow, he's still holding out for love-
I tried making fun of him...since he's a soldier...and it's not normal to see them spouting love sonnets...he has the worse potty mouth i've seen, but when he started talking about love - it kinda gave me that AWWWW feeling, he said (in his thick Boston accent) - "i don't give a fuck about fuckin birthdays and valentines day, because when you've found the one you're supposed to be with...everyday is a fuckin special day." And he proceeds to tell me about how it would be nice to just find that someone you can fully trust with no inhibitions...he believes in whole-hearted trust...no holds-barred love...he wants to fall into it and just lose himself in a woman he loves. To shower her with everything he can...to protect her...
He kept saying the word TRUST...(he kept saying it because a high percentage of Marine Corps men are divorced because of their wives cheating on them)
All I'm saying is that I'm taken aback to hear these things from a guy so bitterly hurt...it's refreshing to know that some guys out there, although they don't show it, actually pine for the kind of LOVE meant for literature... and to stick with one person...and to actually say that they don't have any disillusions about love, since love is just fuckin love...no need to fuckin rationalize what needs not be...
I kinda got teary-eyed just hearing him say these things about love...and finding THE ONE. ..blah, blah, blah...So i got quiet...and he tells me, "i guess i found a way to keep you quiet..." and i tried to hide the crack in my voice and said "yeahh..." he clears his throat, "well, i feel kinda fuckin gay now...shit...let's talk about this chick i met in Malta..."
And then he turned back into being just a "guy".
BUT it's always refreshing to hear stories of love...of hope...of trust...of almost "perfect" relationships in this crazy world of broken hearts...broken marriages...cheating husbands/boyfriends...cheating wives/girlfriends...a world where falling out of love could happen all the time...
I had a conversation last night with a friend of mine...not one of my gay-fruity-tutti friends...but a straight-as-fuck guy...the times I've talked to him, we've always mucked around and cussed each other out and revel in stories of sexuality and stupidity. But last night was different.
He told me despite his whoring ways...he still wants to find somebody real...
He proceeds to tell me about, this guy in his Marine Corps unit who calls his wife almost everyday, and talks to her in the sweetest softest voice. They've been married three years and he still talks to her like they've just met.
It's funny because this friend of mine is divorced...and he has all the bitterness and disillusions about marriage and love (or so i thought)...but somehow, he's still holding out for love-
I tried making fun of him...since he's a soldier...and it's not normal to see them spouting love sonnets...he has the worse potty mouth i've seen, but when he started talking about love - it kinda gave me that AWWWW feeling, he said (in his thick Boston accent) - "i don't give a fuck about fuckin birthdays and valentines day, because when you've found the one you're supposed to be with...everyday is a fuckin special day." And he proceeds to tell me about how it would be nice to just find that someone you can fully trust with no inhibitions...he believes in whole-hearted trust...no holds-barred love...he wants to fall into it and just lose himself in a woman he loves. To shower her with everything he can...to protect her...
He kept saying the word TRUST...(he kept saying it because a high percentage of Marine Corps men are divorced because of their wives cheating on them)
All I'm saying is that I'm taken aback to hear these things from a guy so bitterly hurt...it's refreshing to know that some guys out there, although they don't show it, actually pine for the kind of LOVE meant for literature... and to stick with one person...and to actually say that they don't have any disillusions about love, since love is just fuckin love...no need to fuckin rationalize what needs not be...
I kinda got teary-eyed just hearing him say these things about love...and finding THE ONE. ..blah, blah, blah...So i got quiet...and he tells me, "i guess i found a way to keep you quiet..." and i tried to hide the crack in my voice and said "yeahh..." he clears his throat, "well, i feel kinda fuckin gay now...shit...let's talk about this chick i met in Malta..."
And then he turned back into being just a "guy".
posted by Sen-sei at 7:05 PM
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