A False Sense of Relationship
Someone accused me of liking the thought of being in a relationship but physically loathe being in a relationship.
Does that make any sense at all?!?
Just because my ex boyfriend of four years lived like thousand of miles away from me...he was in New Zealand and I was in Los Angeles...and my NOW boyfriend is currently thousands of miles away also (think Iraq)...does NOT mean that my type of guy is the one that i NEVER see.
Seriously.
I'm only human to crave something physical.
And I'm already mature enough...since 'i've been there, done that', to know that long distance relationships NEVER if not HARDLY work.
Believe me.
Of course I like being in a relationship! And all the perks that come with it. I'm seriously not the player people make me out to be. (Even though I have dabbled in 'playing' for a while...I seriously am committed to making a relationship work.) I don't find a false sense of singledom when being in a long distance relationship. I mean, OKAY...i admit though, with my old relationship, I kinda lived by what Ludacris said... "i got hoes, in different area codes...area codes..." Haha.
So yeah I kinda did have the mentality of playing around but always liking the fact that I had someone to fall back on to. I always had the one guy that was presentable enough to the world and for my family. Yes, yes, I had a trophy boyfriend. It's like, you know how some guys out there have the perfect "trophy" wife? The ones they bring to company dinners and weekend barbecues? Well, I thought I found my perfect Filipino soon to be hubby...
Horrible. I know. Horrible.
But now, I'm on long distance relationship Numero DOS...and I seriously am not the same person as I was in the first relationship. I seriously don't know what happened. I'm not around picking up random dudes...I'm not even flirting! And that's saying a lot.
Who wouldn't want to be in a real relationship?? Seriously. If I didn't want to be in a relationship because I wanted the SINGLE life. Then it's simple. I'll be single.
Does that make any sense at all?!?
Just because my ex boyfriend of four years lived like thousand of miles away from me...he was in New Zealand and I was in Los Angeles...and my NOW boyfriend is currently thousands of miles away also (think Iraq)...does NOT mean that my type of guy is the one that i NEVER see.
Seriously.
I'm only human to crave something physical.
And I'm already mature enough...since 'i've been there, done that', to know that long distance relationships NEVER if not HARDLY work.
Believe me.
Of course I like being in a relationship! And all the perks that come with it. I'm seriously not the player people make me out to be. (Even though I have dabbled in 'playing' for a while...I seriously am committed to making a relationship work.) I don't find a false sense of singledom when being in a long distance relationship. I mean, OKAY...i admit though, with my old relationship, I kinda lived by what Ludacris said... "i got hoes, in different area codes...area codes..." Haha.
So yeah I kinda did have the mentality of playing around but always liking the fact that I had someone to fall back on to. I always had the one guy that was presentable enough to the world and for my family. Yes, yes, I had a trophy boyfriend. It's like, you know how some guys out there have the perfect "trophy" wife? The ones they bring to company dinners and weekend barbecues? Well, I thought I found my perfect Filipino soon to be hubby...
Horrible. I know. Horrible.
But now, I'm on long distance relationship Numero DOS...and I seriously am not the same person as I was in the first relationship. I seriously don't know what happened. I'm not around picking up random dudes...I'm not even flirting! And that's saying a lot.
Who wouldn't want to be in a real relationship?? Seriously. If I didn't want to be in a relationship because I wanted the SINGLE life. Then it's simple. I'll be single.
posted by Sen-sei at 3:13 PM
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